There are times when people feel alone, afraid, and out of place and suicide seems like the best response to life’s plights but in truth God is the answer. They look for an outlet but still conclude that no one will understand them or they believe that no one cares. For example, in my adolescent years I tried to take my own life by taking a hand full of pills hoping that I would fall asleep and never wake up again; I fell asleep but still woke up in perfect health, I’m not sure if the pills I took had any effect on my body. I did not realize then how bad I needed help and looking back I cannot believe that I took those pills. At that time I felt like no one cared about me and I considered myself as someone who did not have a voice because no one took the time to listen to me. I know that it is by the grace and mercy of God that I am still alive today. Furthermore, when people try to commit suicide they do not want to die, it is a cry for help, but the thought is that no one can help them solve their issues, so they feel hopeless in their attempt to live life. Most people do not know or understand that when people seek to take their own life they have deemed God as being incapable of rescuing them from their troubles and if they succeed in their attempt then they have brought judgment on themselves and will spend eternity away from God.
When I was battling depression I’m not sure why taking my own life became an option, at that time it seemed like the best choice, but I understand now that it was not the best choice and I am glad that I was not successful. I realize that I did not want to die, I simply needed someone to take the time to reach out to me. I wanted to be visible to those around me instead of one who was over looked all the time and I understand that many people feel this way currently. If you are currently in this position please know that help is available through God for he is a near and very present help. For instance, He saved me from myself, changed me, filled me with new life and gave me the strength and courage to journey on in this life. It may seem like life will never get better at times, but I am here to convey that it can and it will. Allow God to come into your heart and fill you with his love. Matthew 11:28-30 says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” So do not give up; please do not throw in the towel. Life is worth living, Jesus is the answer and he loves all his children.
I wrote this prayer for those of you who are currently battling suicide:
Father God I come to you now asking that you help whom ever reads this to overcome every thought of suicide. Lord you died that they might have life and have it more abundantly. There is nothing too hard for you so I pray that they surrender themselves unto you and that you come into their hearts and fill them with your everlasting joy and your everlasting peace. Lord you died on the cross for our sins and we thank you. Lord cover and protect them from the wiles of the enemy, your word says if they humble themselves, pray and turn from their wicked ways then they will hear from heaven and you will heal their land. God whom ever is reading this does not want to die, and they acknowledge that you are the answer to what they are facing. Lord I pray that you reveal yourself to whom ever is reading this and that they will receive salvation, become a new creature in Christ and that they will no longer be in condemnation when they walk not after the flesh but after your spirit. God, we thank you for your grace and your mercy that covers us daily and we ask all of this in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.